But an indoor kid? I’m not convinced such a thing exists, not without outside influence. My spidey mom-sense tells me this is nurture talking, not nature; fixable, in other words.
Lying there in the dark, I tried to talk her off the ledge. It’s because it’s winter, I said, and we’ve gotten out of the habit of dressing in warm layers – which we’d about mastered at her Waldorf preschool where they went outside every day, come sleet or bomb cyclone.
And it’s true, bit by bit we’ve shed our armor when it comes to getting dressed for public school. Take gym day, which is every other day: you have to wear sneakers, or else sit out. So it doesn’t matter if it’s snowy – boots are out. My solution was to buy a pair of shiny high-tops (fashion being another newly pressing concern), but though they’ll keep snowflakes off the ankles, they’re useless for trudging in lovely snow and muck. Kai can’t really play outside in wet weather, not with the kind of abandon as when she wore waders over woolen long underwear. But what are you gonna do? On inclement days they often have indoor recess anyway.
Maybe I was making too much of an offhand comment from an overtired kid. Or maybe Kai was tipping me off to something serious. She had been making excuses recently when the rest of us went outside, staying behind to color or practice writing, and who can complain about that? But maybe these little concessions – to fashion, to exhaustion, to conformity – have compounded, were compounding all the time, to nudge my mountain climber, my flower collector, my fairy house builder, into more sedentary habits, which were calcifying before my eyes.
The trampoline is outside, I tried again. The garden. Building snowmen.
Shush, she said. I smiled in the dark. In seconds her breathing slowed. She was right. I wasn’t going to win this one with words. It was a case of show, don’t tell.
The next morning, I tried to convey my epiphany to Joe. I’ll take the baby to the office, I said; you get them out, and to play, not just to hang around while you do chores. He does not like when I bark orders – can you believe it? So I put the case as simply as I could and repeated Kai’s words verbatim: I don’t like going outside. His eyes popped. Message received.
Just because our kids are growing up on a homestead with chickens and goats and a mountain to climb does not mean they’ll automatically be little Paul Bunyans. Just because their dad’s an Eagle Scout, just because their parents got hitched at City Hall and then grabbed a bottle of bubbly and went kayaking in lieu of a party, doesn’t mean our kids’ love affair with the outdoors is preordained. They’re a product not just of their parents but also of their moment. We’re up against iPads, climate control, so much glitter. If we get complacent, even our kids might forget what they’re missing.
It’s part of why I fell in love with you, I told Joe, as I bumped the car seat out the door -- you’re like a camp counselor.
We’ll put up the swing, he said.
I felt momentarily weak with relief. I would not have to fight him on this. We were on the same team.
That night when I got home, I heard the good news before I saw it. The girls were bouncing with joy, not a meltdown on the horizon, as Joe cooked dinner in PJ pants and slippers. The new trapeze bar was hanging from a cedar branch, they reported gleefully, and they’d tracked Joe down on the mountain. We were back, for tonight, to feeling like us.